That night, was lonely.

My Story

29 March 2007

I DON'T HATE LIFE, I DON'T LOVE LIFE... I'M JUST LIVING MY LIFE.

LIVING IN MISERY SOMETIMES..

aiiya.. life's a bore. i keep thinking of it. but i dunno la. wish i would stop thinking about it. haii. only dy would know what i mean don't you? blahh. but u won't b reading this anyway. i feel so lethargic these days. i hv no idea whyy. i really miss the old times. my past and all. haii. but i'll promise myself from this day on i'll only look forward to the future n never keep thinking bout the past continuously. i hope i'll be able to do that. =) haii. i jus wish there'll b someone i can complain to w/o giving me any real advice but jus crap ard wit me and all. but i doubt there's someone to do tt. i mean after all. it's human nature to attempt to jus make a situation better. but we dunno what is the proper method as it differs from everyone. oh wells. will anyone be there to jus do tt wit me or for me? nahh. i doubt it. oh nvm. after all. expecting xXx to read this is as good as expecting me to get an a1 for bio. haii. anyway. i'd really wish you'd climb out of your shell alr. anyway. enough of all that. Os is coming up like real soon yet i'm not prepared. who will really go study? won't talk n jus like keep motivating me to study? if you feel like your the one den tell me alrite? blahh. but who am i kidding. i doubt anyone will reply this. nvm. i wanna jus be some super random person who never fails to just keep smiling and look at everything positively and not get upset over the slightest tings. but i dunno if it'll ever be possible. haii. you keep coming back into my mind. but is it true? i doubt it. eventually i'm gonna give up. n if i wanna give up it'll b soon. i promise myself that. i shan't lie to myself no more. i'd wish you/they would read this. but even if you don't i don't care. i'll keep it to myself all the same. life's a super piece of bore..

todayy had Mission for Life wit a misson grp from Novena church. quite cool la. it was quite fun with all their jokes and all. seriously.the guys made it sound so boring but actually quite fun oso la. only prob was tt their presentation too boring. almost fell asleep many times during the presentation. but apart from tt it's more or less alrite. i'm still trying to figure out how it is related to NE but it's still abt the same la. oh well. at least they taught me to treasure what i have. the people ard me and the little tings tt happen to me. they're all blessings from God and i shld not overlook these little little tings. thx to them for tt. kudoos. at the same time. a lot of ppl lost their stuff. more like kena stolen. a lot of ppl bags were ransacked. my class oso kena ransacked but no one lost anything. but Casslyn lost her ipod and handphone.. sheesh. life's so unpredictable. dy lost $16. compared to Casslyn, it's not much. but still it's annoying. i tink my bag oso kena ransacked but thx to Julz who asked me to bring along my wallet and hp. i din lose anything. thank God for tt too..

alrite. gotta go alr. watch tv. vacuum floor. bore myself to slp. n cont'd thinking about it...would life change? i don't tink so alr. but i'm gonna go tink abt it first. anyway. shld i go back to church or shld i change church or shld i jus leave things the way they are now. i'm so tired of continuously thinking abt my problems relating to church. yet i can't help it. many ppl hv asked me to go to church. be it back or to other ppl's church. yet i dunno what i shld do. where's the life tt i so wanna lead and tt i used to hv it? it's all gone and lost. aii..

gone to see the Sun rise from the West-

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