That night, was lonely.

My Story

25 November 2006

birthday was boring. super boring. woke up at like who knows wat time. called wendy. went to GV Tamp to watch movie. watch material girls. such a stupid show la. waste of time and money. is like quite shit.. argh. wanted to leave halfway but i'm not some rich kid so didn't cos din wanna waste money. blech. oh wells. siann. after the movie. walked ard a bit. den stood outside this shop under the mrt and chat for about 15 mins i tink then we went home cos nth else to do. NO! wait. she bought me a cake. yay. haha. cut it in half and shared. THEN went home. LOL. so swt. den went to ah ma's hse for dinner and went home. daddy bought me another cake. yumm. so nice to eat. not a very wonderful one i guess. but at least it was better den doing nothing at home! but i spent my own money! sad la.now i no money alr. broke.

anyway. this is dedicated to someone.

if you think you're like so darn great den fine la. wth. who cares. u always think u're right and others is wrong. probably so. this is so not the first time i said it. but u nv believed and always think tt i'm lying to jus like make myself feel better. if you tink that way then go ahead. who cares. wat the hell. i'm always jus so useless compared to you rite? wateva. is like so wat if you're better den me in some ways. so more smarter in ways not exactly in studies. but sometimes i wonder if you're jus being fake in front of everyone den when u're behind closed doors you're jus so different. screw yourself la. is like sometimes i even look up to you and sometimes wish i were a little like you but end up i think perhaps not. i can't say that i'll feel this way forever but i noe most of the time i do. i can say that mayb sometimes i'll regret writing this but sometimes i wish i would have written much nastier things. i wish that sometimes i could jus learn to do THIS (not meaning writing this but smth else) but i jus think i would rather stick to being myself la. mayb it's not the best way to do things but at least i feel more comfortable being myself rather den to jus become a different person in front of different ppl. perhaps we don't share the same sentiments. but anyhow. i still think that u and i both need to jus fix that lose screw in our heads somehow. u jus need to stop thinking that everyone's blaming you for everything so u use it as an excuse to blame others. and i jus need to stop being so irritating and jus start understanding the situation ard me. perhaps this is the case but i can't realy say u have to do it rite? haii. i dunno you la. but i certainly need to start doing smth. esp changing my perspective on many things such as you for one.

this all sucks.

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